I Figured it Out!

I mentioned in a post a couple weeks ago that for the past couple of months a song titled Born Again by Third Day has been on the radio almost everytime I turned one on.  If the song wasn't already playing, it came on shortly after I started listening.  I mentioned I thought the Lord was trying to tell me something, so I'll share my thoughts with you now.  I shared this with the women at our WOM Pajama party Feb. 5.

2009 was a very hard year for me.  I went through some major changes with my family that was really hard for me to deal with.  I was hurt a lot, but I always turned to the Lord for comfort and understanding.  Along with dealing with my family problems, I was also wrestling with the idea of going on a mission trip to Africa.  I wanted to go soooo bad, but I was scared to death at the thought of traveling outside the USA.  I'd never done that before so I would be stepping way outside my comfort zone.  My husband, Mitch, was not planning to travel to Africa with me either, so that was another worry toying with my mind.

My pastor often mentioned the trip during Wednesday evening services and Sunday morning services, yet I was still wrestling with making my decision to go.  I can't tell you how torn up I was on the inside with fright and what ifs, but I still wanted to go soooo bad.  One day in October I was talking with my niece on the phone and in our conversation I just blurted out, "How can I say I have faith in God if I don't trust Him to get me to Africa and back home safely?" and boy did that hit me like a ton of bricks.  I had unconsciously put a limit on my faith and what I thought God could do for me.  I never meant to do that.....

So, finally by the end of December I made my decision to go to Africa.  I can't tell you the calmness that came over me after I made this decision, so I know it's God's will that I go.  My Pastor still jokes about some of the hardships we might have to deal with and some other things that might make me think twice about going, but my mind is set because I know it's God's will.  I'm going and that's that!

Although the song relates mostly to new Christians, I think God is speaking to me through this song and showing me how I've been "Born Again" since I've removed the limits on my faith in Him.  I didn't even realize I was doing that, but I'm so thankful He helped me see that through Him I can do ANYTHING!!!  I really can!!  I think all of us can be "born again" in several different ways.

I'm not worried about the costs of the trip, the shots I'll have to take, or conveniences I'll have to do without.  I just pray I can go help others learn about Him and His kingdom and bring glory to His name in all that I do while I'm there.  That's all I want to do.  No limits!!  And I can't wait!  I'm so excited!!